broto shoots

no one posts frequently enough for me,
i think i need more blogs to read.

or a hobby?

tonight is the tony chestnut shoot.
i'm pretty excited.
it's for her press package so
maybe my face will be popping up around
this city a little more
(at least in print).

the best part is, it's her fall line
(which i love tc fall clothing)
and even better is that i get paid
with clothes from the shoot.

in august we hope to do another shoot
in vancouver together as well:


busy busy busy.

time off

today, i woke up and sat outside while it
threatened to rain. i drank my coffee
and read my book while glenn did his internet
errands and we sat in silence.
it's been nice.

i've finished a book and voraciously
read to the halfway point of the next.

i ate a hotdog, and texted a best friend
i haven't talked to since february.

yesterday, i tried to save my mother's job.

i took photos. i bought cigarettes.

i had a legitimate conversation with someone
with whom the majority of our correspondence is
asinine.

i got my hair done.
i said i thought it was too short,
but really i thought it was too serious.

i'm searching for productivity in the most
unproductive time of my life.
i'll let you know when it starts to work.

earthquakes

EARTHQUAKE JOLTS LOS ANGELES

By Dan Whitcomb

LOS ANGELES (Reuters) - A moderate earthquake struck east of Los Angeles on Tuesday, shaking tall buildings in the city but there were no immediate reports of injuries, major damage or power outages.

The earthquake, which struck at 11:42 a.m. local time (2:42 p.m. EDT), was measured at magnitude 5.8. It was centered about 30 miles east of Los Angeles near the community of Chino Hills, where it was felt strongly.

But witnesses reported feeling the shaking strongly in neighboring Orange County, as far south as San Diego and as far east as Las Vegas. There were no reports of power outages.

Several small aftershocks were reported in the minutes after the quake...

patbro, are you okay?

work is going swimmingly

(wicked!)

also, my dog caught a mouse and ate it today.

i think she thinks she's helping?

carrot top

i really need to figure out how to put a tag

on these photos so people know that i took them

and am not just ganking them from the internet.

my final exam ever(of an undergrad degree that is)

is in t-minus 3 hours!

i have 3 clients tomorrow at the center then i start

my new job here.

all with orange hair courtesy of my mother.

eeegh.

just so you know, if we decide to get married,

my coffee making skills are 50-50. as in, 50%

of the time it's pretty good, and the other 50%

tastes exactly how my current cup tastes:

like cigarette butts.

(in typing that i managed to spill coffee

all over my pajamas. oh personification! you

did that on purpose!)

last night glenn and i played Civilization 4

until 4:30 in the morning. well he played and

i watched. it's a perfect game for me as i've

got classical history as my other major and

am a stickler for historicity.

i just don't have the patience to actually learn

how to play myself.

i should go, i'm walking into this exam tonight

blind, but i don't care because i already have

my degree.

lets eat chicken wings and party guys!

two things

One good and one bad:

• i am finally employed!

• i learned the hard way why one should
  never let their mother dye their hair.

oy vey.

he's probably better off dead.

We've missed Ian Curtis' birthday.

July 15th 2008 he would have been fifty-two.

i've got Bomberman on my mind,

and "These Eyes" in my head.

trendsbian

today i was asked if i were a lesbian
because i was reading Female Chauvinist Pig,
a social commentary on the rise of raunch culture
and the role of feminism within it by Ariel Levy.

i said no.
he asked why i was reading that book then.
i said that it was because i am educated, a feminist,
and the subject matter is very interesting and relevant
to me and my views on the roles women play in society today.

he then asked me on a date.

my racism towards sweaty 30+ italian men
has just sky-rocketed.

words of wisdom

i found a mystery roll of film i'd taken
and these were on it:

(rawr)

earl's girl?

one of these days i hope to be able to afford

to get my recent film rolls developed.

maybe it's cheaper to just learn how to do

it myself?

someone please help me get a job?

(i'm an A cup, so the title of this blog wouldn't

work for me. niether will hooters although i do

hear they're hiring?)

finally

i'm house sitting a pool and it's rained the
entire time.
boo!

i've finished my thesis and submitted it officially
as of 2.5 minutes ago.

i feel as if i've just gotten over a vicious
coughing fit and can breathe again.

now all i need is a job!

field trip

i want to go to the museum!

channeling plath

i've been in a coma. i can barely make regular
conversation with people these days, so i've been
avoiding them. i've been inundated with typed words
and angry red ink in 47 year old jewish handwriting.

i'm happy that my brain stem controls my breathing
because without it i'm sure i would have stopped a
long time ago out of sheer lack of attention.

i feel as if my life is wearing plaid and stripes.
my goals and ideals clash.
the scariest feeling in the world is the realization
that you have no idea what will make you happy,
and if you really are happy at all.

i've been taking care to leave a little time
each day for re-centering. my bike helps with that.
however, the introspection is flooding me with
realizations about the very near future that are
not as promising as they appear on paper.

i feel so disconnected.

on tuesday i told my therapist that i was afraid of
liberation. of change. of loss of control.

he had nothing poignant to say, aside from some
half-hearted explanation of biological processes.
he thinks that if one does not want to lose control,
one can not lose control.

i think he's a liar.

(The good thing about this time is that i've decided to embrace
every part of myself. 'bad person lauren' et. al.)

if you see me out and about excuse my downcast eyes,
i have a mountain on my mind.

i know no one cares but...

i graduate in t-minus 17 days!
and my thesis is almost done!
and my life is about to begin!

scary

the other night i related far too much
to esther greenwood.

i know, strange to decide to read the BellJar
in the middle of the summer, but
i figured it would save me from slipping
into the depths of despair
Anne of Green Gables style.

fixies

Fixed Mag's 1st issue is available here
for download as a PDF file.

'zine dedicated to fixed gears? yes!

i snagged this info from matt for
you guys.

i forgot

to write about the week brent and malcolm were here.
the first night we hung out, brent and i snuck
into a french igloo in st boniface, and danced
to 90's hits from a dj playing off a desktop computer
in the "beer gardens."

after their first show we danced in the parking lot to
the bee gee's, with a homeless person and a trashed
guitar, as well as fraser and malcolm.

there was alot of stooping at the Winona
and several two rivers. taylor tagged along
and we realized we actually knew alot of people
who lived there.

lots of walks and talks and awful tasting beer.

i like it when they come into town.

next tour is in august!

hooray!

hello?

i nail this song in kareoke sessions.

sure-fire cheerer-upper

madge visiting in her usual hurricane in/out
way, dropping off these gems from Canada Day.

pure talent.

ps: also, listening to the Commodores is another way
to put a smile on your face (and a sway in your hips)

"something something darkside..."

i'm listening to Devendra Banhart and being
such a bummer today.

i don't even want to be around me.
i want to go take photos of carnie's
in vancouver.

i am house sitting in the 'burbs next week.
pool party at my house!!
(you're all invited)
(bring sangria)
cheer up this bummer face

canada day

i saw jose gonzales last night and he took my breath away. unbelievable show, really. i really had a great and QUIET canada day. it was the first time in almost 4 years that i didn't work the street festival. Glenn and i walked sid, went to say hi to the pmix girls who all looked lovely as per usual, then we met ryan and mike downtown for mojitos. after that we had dinner with my family and then went to the show.

currently im sitting waiting for madge to pop her head in to buy some extra jose tickets off of me for the show tonight, and im trying to do my thesis but it's a little hard to concentrate here.

i had a doctor's appointment today. it sucked.
(that seems to be the theme of them lately).

that's all i've really got for you today, i hope to be a little more productive. i also hope to actually go and get a job so that i can afford a pack of cigarettes. K.D. Lang is on repeat in my head right now.

(my kid sister is beautiful)