"when you look in the mirror, what do you see?"

i read that today.

when i look i see indiscriminate rage hidden behind a natural pout.

don't ask me why contempt seems to be my middle name and cynicism has refused to be quelled any longer. i have no reason why my winter personality has scuttled out from under it's rock when the sun still shines outside.

i have a negative energy that's welled up inside me with no inspiration to allow an outlet. i feel vengeful and angry and resentful of the vast majority.

i found comfort in the words of an old friend over bicycle discussions and sangria the other day. aside from that it's taking all self-control to not physically hurt something these days. i think my ability to tuck away the hurtful moments has completely left me and instead of being sad or upset about these things i've just gone bat shit crazy.

my palms itch for an outlet.

i need to go to paris.

attack

today
i need to make art.

you should watch this

french with english subtitles,
it's amazing.

i'm hiding in the suburbs today.
don't you hate when the
dichotomies in your life get switched
for a moment?

...like when you hate someone you're
supposed to love?

i'm tired.

mmhmm

i'm waiting to work a 12 hour shift
in the service industry with no break
by myself.

my new bike bro friends are moving away.

september's coming and i have nothing to do
(although i really do love fall)

i have 0.67 cents in my bank account.

today is a day.

mo money mo problems

so apparently i have a problem with shopping
these days. mostly because i have nothing to
do with my time or my money, so i've been
dropping hundos like nobody's business.

in 3 days i've bought:
a purse
2 pairs of shoes
a tc shirt
2 lipsticks
and today i just filled out my fall wardrobe
by dropping another buck fifty on clothes.

i need to take up knitting or something.

newest item from tony chestnut

me waiting in the car for my mom so
we can go shopping again. oy vey.

i'm having an affair with my bicycle

have you ever tried to spoon a bicycle
after sex?

did i mention?

my birthday was super fun.

tony chestnut

the shots are in from the tony chestnut shoot.
tell me what you think and check out the
rest of her stuff at tonychestnut.ca

daddy!

today is my father's 60th birthday,
and he's a pretty wicked dad.

in two days is my niece's 1st birthday,
and she's a pretty wicked baby.

tonight we celebrate with chinese food
and family arguments!

glenn is in calgary for 4 weeks and
c. bass is in panama for two.
basically, lets hang out.
i've got nothing but a reckless attitude
and alot of time on my hands.


peas and carrots
LB

regrettably regrettable

last night got regrettable at the pyramid.
and then i got felt up by some cabbie.
tonight c. bass and i are doing it all again
for the dj co op 90's party at the pyramid
(apparently it's the hot spot right now).

here's a pic of my new whip matt snapped
at the color party. my face is a little fucked
up, but whateves.

matt's bike is behind mine and i'm digging
on his rims haarrrd.
i might have to scoop me a set.

k im out to get tonight started, but i'll leave
you with this fun fact:

did you know that if you yelled for 9 straight years
you would create enough sound energy to heat a cup
of coffee?

awesome.

rolling perspective

last night was the Color magazine party
"A Rolling Perspective".
it featured photos from the likes of
mikey taylor etc etc (insert other skateboarders here).
people were encouraged to bike skate or wagon their
way between venues to create their own rolling perspective.

it was pretty sweet and i got to brag about my whip.

tonight is Glass Candy at the pyramid and a gaggle
of us are going. it should be fun although i'm
feeling a bit wiped these days with late night
shifts followed by later night parties.
after the Color party carebears and i sat in
the bro-zebo drinking/smoking til 6am.

i need to check myself before i wreck myself.

ps: matt and i had the best bike brodown last night,
and with some help, i figured out track stands on my
drunk ride home.

baby, i'm so pilled up i rattle.

hiaku

tummy trouble still

i gave my pills to e. wood

so he could get high.

ladies and gentlemen, i can make magic sometimes.

midnight bike ride toute suite!

(i'll miss you janelle)

birthday pps:

glenn built me the sweetest vintage fixie
EVER. and it's the kind that i can switch
the wheel around and ride it normally,
AND it's a step through frame which
is super rare, aka a cross between
a girl's frame and a boy's frame.

AND it's fucking pastel purple people.

pictures to come.

(best birthday present ever)

birthday ps:

i totally got stood up on my birthday
for the only thing i wanted to do
(breakfast).

it's so sucky it's funny
and i'm chuckling about it sarcastically.

i'm being dramatic.

i want to uninvite myself from my own
party tonight. is that weird?

people make me nervous and parties make
me nervous and parties with people
about me make me nervous.

i got accidentally drunk last night
so i'm accidentally hung-over right now
and i'm going to go to sleep for the
rest of the day with my puppies.

happy mother effing BIRTHDAY!!!

it's my party and i'll cry if i want to

not to be a downer/ie or anything,
but i really hate birthdays.

and people.

but mostly birthdays.

monday is my birthday.

i'm currently reading A Brief History of Time.

Newton's theory of universal gravitation states
that bodies attract each other with a force
that is proportional to their mass and
inversely proportional to the square of
the distance between them.

so how does that measure us?

i've taken more photos: